At least one week out of every month, i go temporarily insane, lose control of my emotions, lose my grip on the reality of my life, my ocd kicks in… and basically just lose all rationality. during those episodes, i can see myself (like some out of body experience) and it is bloody scary.
i blame pms for this, for the imbalance of hormones in my body that contributes to this madness.
*Update 21 August 2008: I've been better since this post. Still get quite sad, but been getting better at managing it, distracting myself, pulling myself out of the darkness. Exercising everyday helps as well.