the last 2 days i have been experiencing some grumpiness. its almost like a heaviness on my mind, my state of being, causing me to be irritable and a little impatient. i had a crazy horrid dream 2 nights ago about hannibal lector. i won't go into the details but it has been lingering and i woke up with my heart racing, and an awful feeling all over my body, one of fear. it is at times like that that i wish i were sharing a bed with someone i loved who would put their arms around me and tell me to it was just a bad dream and everything is going to be okay and made me feel safe to enter my dream state once again.
maybe i just need a good cry to let whatever is disturbing me out somehow.